Friends With FOP

I had not realized the time gap from when I posted on 12/5 until 12/15.  I was so excited to publish the last post I hardly noticed how much spam the site received in that length of time.  Something new that I learned by running this site is that there are professional spammers out there.  Funny how most of the spam the site attracts are for prescription drugs…Percocet, Vicodin, Hydrocodone, and even Viagra.  As I went to hit the “delete all spam” button, one in particular caught my eye.  It read, “I took Hydrocodone during my pregnancy and had a healthy baby!”  WTF (not going to be polite about it)!!  I did everything I was supposed to during my pregnancy with Erin (well, minus the day I ate a pint of ice cream for lunch a couple hours before a diabetes test).  Not fair!  I am telling myself it’s just spam, but it still bugs me to no end.  Then I was flipping channels the other night and I landed on TLC.  There was a documentary on the “Mermaid Girl” in Maine.  Her father said they would have had better chances on winning the lottery than having a child with this syndrome.  Yes!  Yet another parent who understands my pain and frustration.  We’re a small group of parents who once would have dreamt of winning the cash lottery, and were lucky enough to have won the lottery with our children (and we really have).  There are moments when I don’t think life is fair and ask why did this happen to our baby.  Oh I know, “she’s going to have a greater purpose in life”…”we’re going to learn so much from her”…”she’ll touch a million hearts along her journey…”  But right now in this moment I need to brood in my feelings.  I guess I have Hydrocodone spam to thank for my recent set back.  It may have spun me for now, but I’ll recover.